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Boys, From My Perspective : I'm not looking for those self-centered jocks, those hard to please bad boys, those hard to get gangstas, those self-absorbed break-dancers, those know it all book nerds, those "show it all off" athletes, those conceited musicians, those easy to read players, those "lovin my race" idiots, those sweet but ugly sensitive boys, those "fake nice" scene kids, those easily influenced pretty boys, those girl crazy studs, those easy to please nice guys, those stay at home gamers, those "sex only" druggies, or those taken but still looking boyfriends, and i especially don't want those "baby come back" ex boyfriends, because i don't give second chances. I'm not looking for anything. Don't think that just because i have "single" written on my forehead you can come and bring me your i wanna "holla" flirting tactics, because i wont be listening. I'm single because of change and I'm mean because of experience. I don't think I'm "all that" or the most prettiest thing in the world. I might be vain but I'm far from your conceited average. You could say I've got more problems than an algebra equation - Jason Derulo "algebra". & i cant be a doctor because i just don't have the patience. I've managed this long, out of pure honesty, because i didn't have someone by my side. Its easier to take care of myself than care about what my "significant other" was thinking every second of the day. I can be clingy but only because you didn't pay me enough attention. I can get bored, but only because we both didn't put in enough time. I can cheat, but only because I didn't give you enough "me". I can lie, but only because i have issues that you shouldn't know about. I can give, but only because you gave me so much to give away. i can get "sexual" but only because i don't want you to let me go. I can cry, but only because you hurt me bad enough not to hurt myself. I can fight, but only with you because keeping you close is what i aim for. I can listen, but only because you showed me respect. I can flirt, but only because you kept my interest. We can last, but only because we got past the drama. I'm not looking for that special someone, but whatever comes my way simply comes my way. I can get infatuated with a boy with sweet words just long enough before he decides he wants to move to the next level. I can skip those sweet words and get physical, but it wouldn't do a thing because once you get a piece you'll want another toy to play with. I'm done trying to keep a boys interest, instead you boys need to work hard to keep mine. I don't mean to make it difficult, but my love is hard to find, and I'm sick of giving you the opportunity to take it so easily. I can fall for you, him, his, or theirs, but no heart works harder than mine. I'm sick of the pretty boys using me to get what they want. Or the self conscious boys trying to lure me in with their sensitivity and complete gayness. Yeah i said gayness, i made up a word. I'm sick of those unwanted compliments and those sick of reading love notes, yeah I'm complicated, so what ? I'm hard to find, but easy to please, I'll fall for you even if your full of all the bullshit i just said. & if you managed to read all this without skipping lines, then sadly, id have to say love, your worth all my time. Interestingly enough, today was an OK day. Can't wait for new years :)